Antsy Butterfly
To be honest, I don't know whether I should laugh or cry. It seems that every single social event that I am being invited to lately, I have to turn down. Every social event that I plan and/or organise, I have to cancel. Why? because of this stupid assignment. Because of my stupid academic crap.I didn't go to the careers conference on saturday (even though it was free for members) because I felt guilty leaving the house. And then I spent the entire day wasting it by chatting to my best friend online.
I cancelled my lunch with my proofreader friend last Thursday because I felt guilty about not having enough time to do work. and then spent the day reading fanfiction.
I've been looking forward to this dinner on Wednesday for over a month. 1. because it's a night out. 2. because i might see him there. and now it looks like there's a high chance I might cancel because of this stupid essay. not to mention the fact that I'm seriously in major trouble here. truly dying as we speak. Blood in the water. I'm a dead floater and there's nothing you or I can do about it.
I'm so tired. I don't know why. I went to bed at 2.30 last night after procrastinating by taking lots of photos on my digital camera. I did get around to doing some reading before I went to bed. But i promised my supervisor a copy of my next draft today. can't do that if I don't write. there have been no changes to the stupid essay since yesterday.
*pulls out hair*
why can't i go to one single social event? why is my life being haunted by academic pieces of writing? why can't i just go out and have fun? why does my conscience play such tricks on me? why can't i just flop over the finish line? who says i have to do well? who cares about honours anyway?
gahhhhh...
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I just want a nice fun night out on the town. THAT'S ALL. i just want someone to care. I want my friends to ring me up and drag me out. I want them to make me a part of their lives. is that too much to ask??? I just want to go out. I want to see more than the 4 walls in my room and the wallpaper in my house. I want someone other than my supervisor and my ex to ring me up or msg me. I want a LIFE. is that too much to ask?????
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